Not feeling terribly good mentally, that now I have drowned a bottle of wine. Thoughts in my mind now are about my wife and son who is said to be in the Autistic spectrum. It worries me  when I think of the future. Tomorrow morning he goes to school again, I can never stop thinking of him and worrying. I never had a good time at school and it makes me go crazy thinking about him in school alone.

My wife, she's everything to me but for some reason she does push my buttons at times and she knows exactly how to do it.

I get depressed but ashamed to admit. Perhaps it unfair to my other son which I love as much. He's cheeky but a bundle of joy.

Maybe I should try the shrooms.

The radio is talking about John key playfully tugging a waitress hair as that's all that matters.